Monthly Archives: May 2010

self-destruction

sometimes I have this tendency.

sometimes it’s self-destructive.

to just keep digging that damn hole while picking at a scab while waiting for the pot to boil.

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It’s been a long time

She checks the clock above the oven and has exactly four minutes to spare before she must flag a taxi outside. There is a napkin and a blue pen on the countertop so she begins to scribble the way other people doodle.

Four minutes left. Four minutes on the clock, Peter. Four four four fourfourfourfourrteen months to the day next Friday. My, how time flies. It flies just like your shadow, Peter. Well that’s silly. It doesn’t fly, stupid girl, Tink chimes. It WOULD, but you’ve sewn it to his feet. You ass. And she’s chimed it so often that you understand it wearily, without Peter’s explanation. And then because Peter’s not looking, you pinch her by the wings and shut her in the lantern-shaped candle holder. She protests shrilly, you stupid ASS, and in a fit of pixie temper sets the candle on fire.

She leaves to hail a cab.

I need to find a way to consolidate all past blog posts

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the office

I’ve never held a full-time job.

I told my (new) supervisor that I had been a full-time student most of my life, and he laughed. I’d like to think a bit of cheek only helped during my interview, but maybe they were just severely understaffed.

Halfway through today, after they assigned me a desk and a computer and a cubicle, I realized that I would be back every single weekday, to the exact same spot, for an x number of weeksmonths. It was weird not being a flighty little intern. I suppose ‘transitory office admin’ is only so much better, but still. In the last forty-five minutes of work, I looked for an appropriate wallpaper to leave on my computer screen (dandelion, lomography). It had never been worth the effort before; nor may it have been entirely appropriate.

So far it’s boring, but there have been a few interesting moments.

– A caucasian supervisor who was teaching me a computer system said “aiyah!” in the most convincing way.

– The web guy spent 30 minutes lecturing me on facebook, in which I am already extremely, extremely well versed. I was simultaneously bored to tears and amused.

– The girl who sits at the cubicle next to mine is a designer from Shanghai. Her name is Unicorn. I hope we become friends.

But the absolute best part of my day was coming home to Mowgli. lols. what can I say. He’s the love of my life. It’s only unfortunate that he likes to sniff crotches.

I digress.

I am going to art school. If for no other reason than it’ll give me a legitimate excuse to buy loads and loads of pens. And create design boards. with textiles and pictures and ribbons. touchtouch.

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